I got a phone call from the D.W.P to say that they are not appealing my case to the Upper Tribunal, I could dance so hard right now, I think of all the wasted worry over going through that again and I can relax. All that worry for absolutely no reason what so ever, kinda makes me want to kick that damn anxiety in its judgy, hypersensitive arse.
For those of you going through this please just have faith in the system, faith in the panel of judges, and please don’t back down just because it’s scary. It might have hurt my mental health at the time but I just couldn’t get over the fact that I knew I was entitled to support, and I knew the assessment decision and mandatory reconsideration decision was wrong.
Now I am entitled to more support to help me get back on my feet, and that’s exactly what I intend to use it for. I can finally pay my therapist back for all the sessions that I have been struggling with money and she’s been kind enough to see me for free. I don’t have to worry about paying for therapy until 2020, because that’s what my P.I.P is there for.
I can finally treat myself to a little break, even if it’s just for a couple of days I think myself and my partner deserve it after all the ups and downs we’ve been through this year alone. We’re thinking the highlands around the Christmas break, snow, whiskey, and a warm fire sound pretty great right now; oh and the slopes at that time of year are great.
Today I feel like I can finally breathe again, stop worrying about money, stop worrying about living off my partner, and finally get some financial independence of my own. Sisters doing it for ourselves and all that, because these past two years I feel like I’ve had a sugar daddy taking care of everything as I fight against my mental health.
I understand that’s not the case and in a real relationship you pick each other up when you need to, but finally, I have some money of my own to contribute towards the rent or even my other halves Christmas presents, which I have been feeling rather guilty about. I can finally get the support I’ve been needing for such a long time.
Can I do a happy dance yet?