You hold me back from life,
You show me glimpses of the knife,
That hung above my head,
When I wished that I was dead.
I hold you all inside,
It causes a fatal landslide,
My face begins to hurt,
As you hold it in the dirt.
I tried to forget,
You left me with the debt,
It became stronger,
I could not go on any longer.
I drowned them out with alcohol,
The warring conditions continued to brawl,
I drowned them out with drugs,
They became quiet and just gave hugs.
It was how I was able to go outside,
I wanted to walk the worldwide,
But they knew it was just a matter of time,
And the conditions started to climb.