I feel a slight flutter in my tummy,

I worry that I might become a mummy.

I would love to have a child,

but my mind has become too wild.

Over-obsessing about every ache,

and questioning my abilities makes me want to break.

Worrying about the effects of my illness,

from the pills to the attacks,

all the way to the abusive flashbacks.

Will I pass this to my child?

Will all my symptoms turn mild?

Is that flutter a sign?

Or is it all just in my mind?